Standing Still

On Christmas Day 2023 my beloved son Cash died. This collaboration came out of the need to honor the relationship between Cash and I. To show how even after he left the physical world we are still connected and in relationship. The series title STANDING STILL IN A CONSTANT STATE OF DEPARTURE is from a line Cash wrote in a notebook I found after his passing. I believe it was his feeling of always being on the verge of leaving this life, but standing still staying for me. Cash and I shared the language of photography and a love of light. We were each others first pair of eyes on new work. Cash captured his struggles and was always looking for light in the darkness. I was looking for the poetry in the everyday world. We intersected in a place of light and beauty. These images are double and triple exposures comprised of collodion wet plates, Polachrome slide film, Polaroids, gold and silver leaf on vellum and film images. Cash’s images and mine, blended into a vision of the new place he inhabits. Love that defies space and time. Hands that reach out to find each other between realms. Traveling beyond intense grief into understanding that we are still together.